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I am Jack's Inflamed Sense of Rejection [24 Oct 2004|10:53am]

This had to be done....
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The Influence Grows [22 Oct 2004|11:45pm]
[ mood | cold ]

After school, Sean came over. We watched Xombie Episodes 1-4 and some Ren and Stimpy. I got the Season One and Two DVD today. Later, we met Natalie and Largent. Then, we all went to Sean's house to watch THE movie.... Fight Club. Natalie really liked it. Now, even Sean is under the influence of it. I walked with Nat to the corner and skated the rest of the way home. I hung outside with my brother, Paul, Johnny, and Mike until 12.

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Studio Session 2 [21 Oct 2004|08:39pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

After school, we went to the studio. The full band was there. Getting started was one thing. Then, we switched to playing Thrice half way through the session. We all almost have "Cold Cash and Colder Hearts" down perfectly. This session was sick. Next time, we're going to get this song perfect.

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More Songs Coming [20 Oct 2004|10:42pm]
I went out at 8 and met Carlo. He led me to Erica, Samantha, Doug, Mike, Ali, Ralphy, and Bob. We went to Doug's house. Erica told me to walk her home again, so I did. Then, I went home because it was too cold to stay out. Anyway....

I now have four songs in the works. Two of them are ones that I went back to redo. I am not ready to reveal the names yet, but soon.
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Deep Shadows and Brilliant Highlights [20 Oct 2004|07:42pm]
[ mood | awake ]

After school, Andrew came over. I changed some coins into cash at Commerce Bank on Steinway then, went to Best Buy. Andrew still tagged along. I ran to the HIM section. That's right bitches. I finally bought it. I got Deep Shadows and Brilliant Highlights. After Best Buy, we went to McDonalds and Andrew kept complaining about the food price. I don't blame him. It's overpriced.

We went back to my house and watched an episode of Seinfeld. Andrew talked to my brother about working. He left at about 7. I have to burn Deep Shadows and Brilliant Highlights for him tonight.

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A Seat Better Off Empty [19 Oct 2004|10:29pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

English with Mrs. DeMarco. What a waste of what could have been a good sophomore class. I sit there on 1st floor room 100 or something every day sixth period, working my ass off. And for what? The good of preserving British Literature? I'm sorry, that's not my job. In the words of Gionelli, "If we didn't kick the British's asses, we'd all be sippin' tea and talkin' like O'Riordan." In my opinion, English 2 is just an Advanced Common Cold class. And if you think about it, Advanced Common is an oxymoron. And no, I did not learn that this year, I learned it in 8th grade.

Today, she did her usual routine. Copy your aim. Go over vocabulary. Copy your homework. Well, actually, I wouldn't mind copying anyone's homework. As long as I don't have to do anything. When she was just going to do the vocabulary, she said, "Let's hope we have a good game tomorrow night with those Yankees, yes sir." I had a sudden urge for disobedience. I wouldn't even consider it that. "I LIKE THE METS!" I blurted out. That class was laughing and looking at one of the only people who would call out in her class, me. She was pissed.

The rest of the day was fine. We had another test in Tonkin's class. I think I got an 88 on this one. Yea, that's a pretty good prediction. Health was boring as always.

When I got home, I beat Tony Hawk's Underground 2 with Story Mode Normal 100% and Classic Mode but not 100%. I later went out to Best Buy. I had a decision of Beast Wars Season 3 or Samurai Jack Season 1. I bought Samurai Jack Season 1. That's right bitches. Tomorrow, I'm picking up the HIM cd I've been waiting for them to release in America for so god damned long, Deep Shadows and Brilliant Highlights. I can't wait until Love Metal comes out. I also want their greatest hits, And Love Said No.

Shit. Fuck.

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Writing [18 Oct 2004|09:32pm]
I stayed home all day and wrote songs. They suck.
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Our Only Hope [16 Oct 2004|11:45pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I went out at about 3 and met Maria, Melissa, and Ashley. I saw "The Forgotten" with them. It was a pretty good movie. During the movie, my brother called me...

"I didn't know you were in the Battle of the Bands. Right now, I'm the only one that can help you."

After the movie, I walked with them down Steinway until Maria's mom picked them up. Then, I went to St. Joe's and then Sean's house. I watched the new Texas Chainsaw Massacre. I went home at 11. My brother sat me down and talked to me again.

Chris: Sit.
Me: Ok.
Chris: Are you sure you wanna do this
Me: Yes, how did you find out.
Chris: I have my sources.
Me: Pizolo!
Chris: Yup. Now, I can help you. You're gonna make this good and do it, or don't do it cause you'd suck.

A new hope. This should be fun....

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Still No Sleep [16 Oct 2004|06:04am]
Yes, I'm still awake. I don't like this condition. The insomnia has come to this point where I don't sleep at all.

Someone save me.
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No Sleep [16 Oct 2004|03:15am]
I haven't slept yet. I can't sleep. This will never be the same.
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Fate In Our Hands [15 Oct 2004|10:46pm]
[ mood | sad ]

In the morning, we were sitting at the table, talking about the band. Mrs. Buso over heard us. and asked us if we wanted to play at Battle of the Bands this year. IT was post poned to December 3rd. We all agreed that it should be done. In Tonkin's class, I talked to him about playing. He said that if one more band didn't join, there would be no Battle of the Bands this year. I told him we would decide by monday. From the moment I left his room, the fate of the McClancy Battle of the Bands was in our hands. We had to have 3 to 4 songs of our own down in a month and a half. Worst of all, I have to sing them live on stage.

After school, we failed in getting to use the music room to practice so, we hung out at Burger King. Andrew came over and we watched flash cartoons and shit. He left at 7. I went out and walked around aimlessly again. I stopped and sat down on some steps. I took out my book and pen....and I wrote a song about Kat. It started pouring so, I put everything away and left. I met Matt, Scotty, and Erica around my corner and we talked about stuff. I went home at 10:30.

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After Effects [14 Oct 2004|09:25pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I hung out with Erica at about 6 at the arcade thingy. When we were walking back home, she asked what was wrong. I went the the text message that first gave the sign that it was over. I handed my phone to Erica and said, "Perhaps this would explain a little bit."

Erica: Oh my god... Are you okay?
Me: ::shakes head no::
Erica: ::hugs Brian::

We decided to go to St. Joe's. We got there at about 7:30. Erica gave me like the biggest hug in the world. She obviously felt really bad for me. I began to cry.

Erica: You really liked her...
Me: ::shakes head yes::
Erica: Did you love her?
Me: Of course I did. I still do.... And I will never be the same.

I cried for about a half hour. I walked Erica home, still crying. She told that I will feel better. I said, "I highly doubt that." and walked away, now crying heavier. I walked around mindlessly for an hour and a half.

I guess you don't realize how much someone TRULY means to you until they're gone. If this is how I feel about her, then....

Why did things go wrong?

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The Broken Heart [14 Oct 2004|05:04pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I left school right away and took the bus and then train to the stop near Kat's school. I then got a text message that said:

"Can we just be friends for now? Cause I need to think about stuff. Please understand."

I just turned right back around and went into the train again. When I got home, I talked to Kat online and she said that it's over.

I fucked up again.



"Can a song replace a broken heart?
Now, can a song replace a broken heart?
No."

- A Static Lullaby

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What Needs to Be Done [14 Oct 2004|07:09am]
I hoped I wouldn't wake up this morning, but I'm here. I have to fix something today. Hopefully, I won't fuck up again.

"I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel"

- Papa Roach - "Scars"
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New Song [13 Oct 2004|09:50pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

After school, I went to Queens Center Mall. It wasn't very fun except for Andrew and Matt Strapone. On the way home, I came up with an idea for a new song. Now, it's being written.

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Escape From Them [12 Oct 2004|10:55pm]
[ mood | blah ]

After school, I got the real Sum 41 - Chuck from Matt M. and put it on my iPod. Then, Me, Sean, and Joe went to hang out with Erica, Nat, and Kira. Joe left before we all began to walk to the 38th park. Me and Erica secretly escaped on the way there to another little park until someone noticed we were gone. We even skipped the park and went to Racks and sat down.

As more and more people came, I grew more distant. The group was Sean, Erica, Nat, Kira, Samantha, Ruban, George, JewBoy, John, Elijah, Dominic, Timmy, Tatiana, and Melanie. The only people I said bye to were George and Melanie. Everyone else was too busy. Sean skated home and I walked with Erica. I kept tormenting her that she wouldn't be home on time to watch One Tree Hill. Also, on Astoria Boulevard, we almost got hit by a speeding car.

What fun.

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Studio Session [11 Oct 2004|10:15pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

I woke up at 12. I met Kat and Karina on Steinway and brought them to my house. We then went to 44th Street to meet Sean, Matt, and Scotty. We were going to our first band practice. Unfortunately, Matt M., our drummer, didn't come. We went to Sound Works. Finally, Sean and Matt came with the bass and guitar. We got in the actual place at 4 and played until about 6:45. It was okay for our first meet. The only song we really played together was Green Day's "Hitchin' A Ride." Kat was on guitar, Scott was on bass, Sean on drums, and Me and Matt were vocals. It came out pretty good.

The time came. We left. I walked with Kat and Karina to my block. I kissed Kat goodbye and walked down my block. I played Tony Hawk Underground 2 until 10.

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Hey Little Boy, Ya Want Some Candy? [09 Oct 2004|11:32pm]
[ mood | better ]

Me, Sean, and Largent skated to Party City to buy candy. Sour Pop Rocks are fucking crazy. I poured some out and spit on it to watch it pop.

"Look guys, it's purified cocaine!"

We met Matt and went back to Sean's house. There, Matt wrote a song while Sean played. I barely contributed to such a happy acoustic song. I can't. I too used to writing darker lyrics than that. I skated home at 11:30.

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The Sickness [08 Oct 2004|11:12pm]
So sick...must go to bed....
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T.H.U.G. 2 [06 Oct 2004|08:33pm]
Ah, yes. The wonders of Tony Hawk's Underground 2!!!
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